money plays an important part in our life.
as chinese sayings goes,
"money is not all, but we cannot survive without money "
so recently because of heavy workload and stress, i develop a very bad short term habit of being spendthrift, i have no idea why this habit exists to me out of the sudden.
I went to work as usual on a saturday, instead of working and earn more commission, i went walking around the mall and start looking for food and drinks.
apart from that, I walk in Charles and Keith planning just to look around but i ended up buying a bag.
after i end my job, some magic spell caused me to walk in Robbison and i end up walking out with three bags of stuff that i have purchase.
that night alone i bought bracelet ,perfume, bag and wallet. But i feel extremely happy about it.
there comes the problem.
the day after that, i fall sick again. and this time the fever doesn go off and it last for a week. i started to worry if it is dengue.
so my friend bought me to a clinic and have a blood test on dengue. first I would like to thank God coz its not dengue, but just sickness due to irregular lifestyle.
but when the bill come, I got shock and i got emo for a short period. It was RM200 . a 100 bucks for that bloody blood test. why they poke me with a needle and still ask money from me?
is it what they call, pay money buy pain?
anyway, I am regret that i shouldn't spend so much that day and cause my savings to gone a lot now.
we should always always save money for emergency.
I told myself i will never impulsive buying again and i will stay away from mall when i am having stress.
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Bar list
As everyone knows, Utar have a very special system which is called the ''bar list''
i guess i will not have to explain further on what is it.
SOOO, yes i have been barred from english for mass communication subject.
i have skipped the total hours of 8 hours for this class which lead to barring.
the reason i skipped that much of hours is because most of the time i am either sick, or i am back to hometown or i have something urgent corp up.
but still i cannot skip my blame for this. As a student attendance should be our priority.
therefore, i wrote an appeal letter to the lecturer for this subject to appeal for unbar.
i promise i will take note of it and try my best to fufill my responsibility as a student.
I promised this will not happen again.
i guess i will not have to explain further on what is it.
SOOO, yes i have been barred from english for mass communication subject.
i have skipped the total hours of 8 hours for this class which lead to barring.
the reason i skipped that much of hours is because most of the time i am either sick, or i am back to hometown or i have something urgent corp up.
but still i cannot skip my blame for this. As a student attendance should be our priority.
therefore, i wrote an appeal letter to the lecturer for this subject to appeal for unbar.
i promise i will take note of it and try my best to fufill my responsibility as a student.
I promised this will not happen again.
Final exam
Final exam is around the corner for all Utar students. it drops on the 3th of september till 12th of september.
Usually i only study my final when i have a week or less to do so .
that is because i perceived a mindset that even if i Study early also useless as i will tend to forget what i have read.
But up to this semester, i changed my mindset. that is because when i look back my semester result in the past, i only get CGPA atmost 2.8 only, and that is for a last minute preparation. and this result is definitely not enough to impress our future boss in the working field. therefore, i have determine to quit last minute study.
I will print out all the notes before hand and always revise them when i have free time.
this is because i believe that practice makes perfect and i believe that i definitely can achieve more than that.
final is just next week, i really hope that by the time i can be ready and this time my target is 3pointer and higher!
I CAN DO IT!
Usually i only study my final when i have a week or less to do so .
that is because i perceived a mindset that even if i Study early also useless as i will tend to forget what i have read.
But up to this semester, i changed my mindset. that is because when i look back my semester result in the past, i only get CGPA atmost 2.8 only, and that is for a last minute preparation. and this result is definitely not enough to impress our future boss in the working field. therefore, i have determine to quit last minute study.
I will print out all the notes before hand and always revise them when i have free time.
this is because i believe that practice makes perfect and i believe that i definitely can achieve more than that.
final is just next week, i really hope that by the time i can be ready and this time my target is 3pointer and higher!
I CAN DO IT!
health
Health is very important to all as we all know.
without a healthy body we can't live longer and enjoy our dream.
here is why it inspired me to write this blog.
last month i went back Muar Hospital and did a check up.
i have a very weak body from others since young.
and because of family history diseases too, i am obligated to do a check up every half a year.
the first two years when i am here in KL to study i always skipped my check up because i think that i am still healthy and fit.but after years of irregular eating meal and sleeping time, i could obviously feel that my body i going downstream.
I often get sick in the year of 2014. I will get fever every month and forced to visit a doctor then. And it affects my life and activities, i feel weak when i am doing exercise, i feel weak if i have walk or stand for a period of time. and most of the time i am very tired and i need sleep a lot. this should'nt be happen to 20 years old teenagers like me
So i claimed my report last thursday. the doctor said i have constantly high blood pressure and reminds me to take care of it before it turn serious and i will have to take MICARDIS for the rest of my life. and also he encourage me to eat more healthy.
after that incident, i am very worry about my health. I dont want to die young, i still have a lot of things to do.
therefore, i decided that i will take good care of my body now onwards and never negotiate with it. I will sleep more early and exercise healthy lifestyle. I want to grow old and die as an old women with lots of grand child surrounding me, but not in a hospital bedsheet. i really realize how important health is to us now.
without a healthy body we can't live longer and enjoy our dream.
here is why it inspired me to write this blog.
last month i went back Muar Hospital and did a check up.
i have a very weak body from others since young.
and because of family history diseases too, i am obligated to do a check up every half a year.
the first two years when i am here in KL to study i always skipped my check up because i think that i am still healthy and fit.but after years of irregular eating meal and sleeping time, i could obviously feel that my body i going downstream.
I often get sick in the year of 2014. I will get fever every month and forced to visit a doctor then. And it affects my life and activities, i feel weak when i am doing exercise, i feel weak if i have walk or stand for a period of time. and most of the time i am very tired and i need sleep a lot. this should'nt be happen to 20 years old teenagers like me
So i claimed my report last thursday. the doctor said i have constantly high blood pressure and reminds me to take care of it before it turn serious and i will have to take MICARDIS for the rest of my life. and also he encourage me to eat more healthy.
after that incident, i am very worry about my health. I dont want to die young, i still have a lot of things to do.
therefore, i decided that i will take good care of my body now onwards and never negotiate with it. I will sleep more early and exercise healthy lifestyle. I want to grow old and die as an old women with lots of grand child surrounding me, but not in a hospital bedsheet. i really realize how important health is to us now.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
our fate is in our hand
recently, my mum bring me to go see "feng Shui".
it was my first experience of doing it so i am exited for it.
when the morning came, i woke up at 7am and stuck in the jam to reach endah parade in sri petaling from Pj.
i reach there at 9am and the shop is already long queue with crowd.
so i get a number from the receptionist, it was 36of the day. meaning i have to wait for 35 person before my turn. when my turn finally came it was already 6pm in the afternoon!
thanks to my phone and a good place to nap to keep me from boredom.
basically feng shui master said i will live prosperity in the future will a lot of money and do not have to work in the future. and he said i will have travel luck in this year ( which is quite true because i was flying to bangkok that week).
He also said that i will not be able to get marry in my life because my love line is totally block and it leads to constantly failure in relationship. when i heard this , i finally understand why he said i will live prosperity in my older life. because i dont have husband and children to support, of course i will be rich!
but a second thought, i choose not to believe in what he said. he said, to change the fate he need to come and visit my house and change the feng shui which will cost me Rm3800. unfortunately i do not have the money so i said 'bye bye' to him and went back.
what i learnt from this is our fate always lie in our hand and it is always up to us to decide how it should be but not others. we should not be influence by the words of others but should stand still upon our points and view. this apply both in life and work. i still believe that i will be able to find a good guy and get marry. my ambition is to be SUCCESSFUL HOUSEWIFE.
it was my first experience of doing it so i am exited for it.
when the morning came, i woke up at 7am and stuck in the jam to reach endah parade in sri petaling from Pj.
i reach there at 9am and the shop is already long queue with crowd.
so i get a number from the receptionist, it was 36of the day. meaning i have to wait for 35 person before my turn. when my turn finally came it was already 6pm in the afternoon!
thanks to my phone and a good place to nap to keep me from boredom.
basically feng shui master said i will live prosperity in the future will a lot of money and do not have to work in the future. and he said i will have travel luck in this year ( which is quite true because i was flying to bangkok that week).
He also said that i will not be able to get marry in my life because my love line is totally block and it leads to constantly failure in relationship. when i heard this , i finally understand why he said i will live prosperity in my older life. because i dont have husband and children to support, of course i will be rich!
but a second thought, i choose not to believe in what he said. he said, to change the fate he need to come and visit my house and change the feng shui which will cost me Rm3800. unfortunately i do not have the money so i said 'bye bye' to him and went back.
what i learnt from this is our fate always lie in our hand and it is always up to us to decide how it should be but not others. we should not be influence by the words of others but should stand still upon our points and view. this apply both in life and work. i still believe that i will be able to find a good guy and get marry. my ambition is to be SUCCESSFUL HOUSEWIFE.
Penang trip during raya
the purpose of me writing this post is because i experienced something very different and i have never faced it before in my life.
this raya holiday, my family decided to go Penang for a two days one night holiday trip. why we choose raya? this is because its the only time where everyone of us is on holiday and have spare time.
we set off on friday mid night, and i am the driver as mummy is old and have eye sight problem in night. at first, i choose to leave at mid night because i thought it will be less traffic jam. BUT! out of my expectation , when i left my house at 3am and reach highway at 4am, the highway was jam packed with cars!!!
everywhere rest room i stopped is full of crowd. mostly malay of course. Suddenly i am thinking in my mind why the hell would i make myself in this situation?
the traffic is super exaggerating bad! it took me 10 hours to reach Penang whereby people normally only spend 6 hours~ and the jam causing me have to keep pressing my break, i almost cant feel my leg anymore when i stopped. Also, i accidentally bumped into a Kancil backside on the way. Thank God the car just got a bit scratch and the car owner did not want me to compensate him. But my car bumper was half gone~ i got a bad scolding from my mum which make my driving journey more gloomy.
when i reach Penang, i was super exhausted that the only things i do is sleep,sleep, and sleep. i could not wake up to do anything despite how my mum try to drag me out.So, the moment when i am finally conscious, its already the last day of my trip. we were already checking out the hotel. so, in short, I DID NOT VISIT ANYWHERE. out of my very unwillingness and sadness, my mum finally took me to batu ferringi for a luxurious seafood lunch which make me feel so much better and comfort. this is the only thing i do in Penang.
After that, we return to KL. Malaysia is such a wonderful country that it give me a chance to really take a look at the mountain and the field. why do i say so? because during the journey back i spent another 10 hours of driving!!!! the slow moving traffic give me the great chance to count the amount of AES on the road. i think i even can remember how many R&R on the road. I LOVE MALAYSIA.
In conclusion, what did i learnt from this trip?
I learnt that i will never ever ever go anywhere during big holiday occasion anymore!! this is to avoid from the heavy traffic jam and also to avoid family war. because bad temper from driving lead to frustration and lead to war. yes.
secondly, for the first time in my life i actually learnt that i can actually sleep for that long. it was a new discovery and i am very happy with that discovery. Apart from that i also learnt that i should always schedule my trip before i set off and never every trust WAZE anymore but only GOOGLE NAVIGATION because WAZE lead me to a further route. also i learnt to always go toilet first before i start my journey because before i reach the highway there is no toilet for me and i almost burst my urinary bladder on the road.
still, it was a pleasant trip because i get to spent quality time with families and also to enjoy our country beautiful scenery. i will not want to go back there again . thank you.
this raya holiday, my family decided to go Penang for a two days one night holiday trip. why we choose raya? this is because its the only time where everyone of us is on holiday and have spare time.
we set off on friday mid night, and i am the driver as mummy is old and have eye sight problem in night. at first, i choose to leave at mid night because i thought it will be less traffic jam. BUT! out of my expectation , when i left my house at 3am and reach highway at 4am, the highway was jam packed with cars!!!
everywhere rest room i stopped is full of crowd. mostly malay of course. Suddenly i am thinking in my mind why the hell would i make myself in this situation?
the traffic is super exaggerating bad! it took me 10 hours to reach Penang whereby people normally only spend 6 hours~ and the jam causing me have to keep pressing my break, i almost cant feel my leg anymore when i stopped. Also, i accidentally bumped into a Kancil backside on the way. Thank God the car just got a bit scratch and the car owner did not want me to compensate him. But my car bumper was half gone~ i got a bad scolding from my mum which make my driving journey more gloomy.
when i reach Penang, i was super exhausted that the only things i do is sleep,sleep, and sleep. i could not wake up to do anything despite how my mum try to drag me out.So, the moment when i am finally conscious, its already the last day of my trip. we were already checking out the hotel. so, in short, I DID NOT VISIT ANYWHERE. out of my very unwillingness and sadness, my mum finally took me to batu ferringi for a luxurious seafood lunch which make me feel so much better and comfort. this is the only thing i do in Penang.
After that, we return to KL. Malaysia is such a wonderful country that it give me a chance to really take a look at the mountain and the field. why do i say so? because during the journey back i spent another 10 hours of driving!!!! the slow moving traffic give me the great chance to count the amount of AES on the road. i think i even can remember how many R&R on the road. I LOVE MALAYSIA.
In conclusion, what did i learnt from this trip?
I learnt that i will never ever ever go anywhere during big holiday occasion anymore!! this is to avoid from the heavy traffic jam and also to avoid family war. because bad temper from driving lead to frustration and lead to war. yes.
secondly, for the first time in my life i actually learnt that i can actually sleep for that long. it was a new discovery and i am very happy with that discovery. Apart from that i also learnt that i should always schedule my trip before i set off and never every trust WAZE anymore but only GOOGLE NAVIGATION because WAZE lead me to a further route. also i learnt to always go toilet first before i start my journey because before i reach the highway there is no toilet for me and i almost burst my urinary bladder on the road.
still, it was a pleasant trip because i get to spent quality time with families and also to enjoy our country beautiful scenery. i will not want to go back there again . thank you.
A Person Attitude
I have an assignment same group with an unknown friend call Jenny. Jenny is came from another courses and arranged by tutor to have same assignment group. There were four members in this assignment, included me, two friends (same course with me) and Jenny. I face a communicate problem and some arguments with her.
In assignment group, communicate problem will make all group member trouble in doing assignment.Even though I have communicate problem with Jenny, it will not affect others group member and me. My friend always helped me to soothing the situation happened.
This communicate problem will also affect the work that we separated. Jenny requested to have the slightly work for her to do. It is because she having huge workload in others assignments. I am angry that what she told to me and my group members. I was thinking that we also having much assignment to complete in coming week.
Finally, we managed to complete the assignment and hand up on time.
I have learnt two things in this assignment. First, I will select and choose my friends as my group member. It is easy for me and other group members to complete the assignment. Second, I will try to search a better way to communicate with dislike people. In additional, I have to improve my emotional having in any situation. A person who has high emotional will easy to control the bad situation happened.
A war with assignment
the reason for writing this assignment is due to the heavy workload of assignment last week and caused some problems to happened. this inspired me a lot and also change my way of doing things.
i had a lot of assignment last week . the due date fall on the same week. i did my part weeks ago, but due to some irresponsible team mate who choose to turn their eyes away from assignment, me and my friends are forced to take their part. This increase my workload a lot because i have to work during the weekend and do not have enough time to finish off all.
so, the only way i can do my work is during mid night. i spent a lot of time finished off all the work and time is normally until 3 am. now, because of sleeping late i could not wake up for my class on monday. i guess i am getting bared for this subject. my mood for that week is really swing, i have cancel all my outing just to focus on my assignment.
through this incident, i learnt i must not do last minute work. because it will kill me. also, i also learnt a very valuable lesson to not only focus on our own part but also must check on other team mate work, because as a team, we united to function better. I also learn to manage my time better onwards because i do not wish to skip class anymore.
I love utar for giving me so much of work to do and letting me to know that i am actually capable of withstanding stress.
i had a lot of assignment last week . the due date fall on the same week. i did my part weeks ago, but due to some irresponsible team mate who choose to turn their eyes away from assignment, me and my friends are forced to take their part. This increase my workload a lot because i have to work during the weekend and do not have enough time to finish off all.
so, the only way i can do my work is during mid night. i spent a lot of time finished off all the work and time is normally until 3 am. now, because of sleeping late i could not wake up for my class on monday. i guess i am getting bared for this subject. my mood for that week is really swing, i have cancel all my outing just to focus on my assignment.
through this incident, i learnt i must not do last minute work. because it will kill me. also, i also learnt a very valuable lesson to not only focus on our own part but also must check on other team mate work, because as a team, we united to function better. I also learn to manage my time better onwards because i do not wish to skip class anymore.
I love utar for giving me so much of work to do and letting me to know that i am actually capable of withstanding stress.
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Bangkok trip
This is a throwback post for my Bangkok trip.
Last semester break, I went to Bangkok Thailand with my lovely mother.
It was my first trip oversea, I have never been to overseas before. It definitely an exciting moment for me.
The reason for this trip is because I saw a advertisement of air Asia promoting cheap air ticket,therefore I have decided to go.
I am the only one who in charge of the air ticket and planning and accommodation.my mum trust me and leave all the details for me to handle.
I booked the air tickets 9 months ahead. My friends is the one who helped me to bought the tickets as I do not have any knowledge about it. When the time is about to come, I started to survey about the places to visit. Bangkok is the heaven of shopping which we will definitely mot miss out.basically I only briefly planned a few places to go.
The day before the trip, I was very excited until I am suffering insomnia, I have to wake up 5am to catch my flight but I was totally awake till that time.
We reach klia 2at 7am. After checking in I realized I made a very big mistake. I forgot to buy the luggage for the flight, which mean my big luggage bag is not allowed to board on plane. But we decided to give it a risk try. My luggage successfully passed through the customs and made it to the plane but all our liquid bottle above 100ml was confiscated. My mum scolded me badly for this.
But still we made it to Bangkok, it was an amazing place! The food there is very very cheap and nice! A big bowl of pork noodle only for Rm3. I lose control of myself and couldn't keep myself from eating.
We went shopping day and night, clothes and accessories there is as cheap as hell. T shirt is only for Rm10!!! After just two hours of shopping my shopping bag has already full loaded.
Other than shopping we also went to high tea at a very classy hotel. At night we went to massage at our hotel massage center. It was a very relaxing moment.
Basically our 4days 3night is just shopping, massaging and eating. We came back malaysia with our luggage overload and was fined for the luggage.
I enjoy travel a lot. Bangkok is definitely worth returning again. But I will be more caution and details next time. I will remember to check in luggage before we go again next time so that things like this can be avoided. I will also be more detail in searching for the place to go because we once lost our way when we are trying to get to a cafe.
I Also learnt the skills to bargain for cheaper price when I am shopping. It is definitely an enjoyable trip.
Last semester break, I went to Bangkok Thailand with my lovely mother.
It was my first trip oversea, I have never been to overseas before. It definitely an exciting moment for me.
The reason for this trip is because I saw a advertisement of air Asia promoting cheap air ticket,therefore I have decided to go.
I am the only one who in charge of the air ticket and planning and accommodation.my mum trust me and leave all the details for me to handle.
I booked the air tickets 9 months ahead. My friends is the one who helped me to bought the tickets as I do not have any knowledge about it. When the time is about to come, I started to survey about the places to visit. Bangkok is the heaven of shopping which we will definitely mot miss out.basically I only briefly planned a few places to go.
The day before the trip, I was very excited until I am suffering insomnia, I have to wake up 5am to catch my flight but I was totally awake till that time.
We reach klia 2at 7am. After checking in I realized I made a very big mistake. I forgot to buy the luggage for the flight, which mean my big luggage bag is not allowed to board on plane. But we decided to give it a risk try. My luggage successfully passed through the customs and made it to the plane but all our liquid bottle above 100ml was confiscated. My mum scolded me badly for this.
But still we made it to Bangkok, it was an amazing place! The food there is very very cheap and nice! A big bowl of pork noodle only for Rm3. I lose control of myself and couldn't keep myself from eating.
We went shopping day and night, clothes and accessories there is as cheap as hell. T shirt is only for Rm10!!! After just two hours of shopping my shopping bag has already full loaded.
Other than shopping we also went to high tea at a very classy hotel. At night we went to massage at our hotel massage center. It was a very relaxing moment.
Basically our 4days 3night is just shopping, massaging and eating. We came back malaysia with our luggage overload and was fined for the luggage.
I enjoy travel a lot. Bangkok is definitely worth returning again. But I will be more caution and details next time. I will remember to check in luggage before we go again next time so that things like this can be avoided. I will also be more detail in searching for the place to go because we once lost our way when we are trying to get to a cafe.
I Also learnt the skills to bargain for cheaper price when I am shopping. It is definitely an enjoyable trip.
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Pets world 2014
last weekend, just before welcoming the beautiful month of July, i have the opportunity to work for Petswonderland in pets world fair 2014.
It was a weekend 3 days event held in Mid Valley exhibition hall.
What inspired me to write this post is because i really felt something throughout this event and i would really like to share it out. What drive me to write is because of what i have seen with my own eyes during the event.
So, it was a pets fair, customers are allow to bring their own dog to the fair provided they follow the following rules:
Unfortunately, when i was working there, i noticed a lot of visitors actually ignore the DO & DON'ts. you can still see some visitors allow their pets to pee and poo on the carpet or everywhere, most terrible of all is that they don't even bother to clean up their pets leftover at all. I even saw some of them just walked away after their pets finished their business. For me, i would say that this is a very inconsiderate act. There are thousand of people walking in and out of the fair, and the place to be frank is very crampy and squeezy. Other visitor who did not pay attention to it might ended up stepping on the poo and pees. And i am not exaggerating it, i do saw few times people cleaning up their feet at toilet because of this.
Besides, some also ignore the rules to leash their dogs when they enter! This is very important and also why the organization choose to highlight this rules. Leashing the dog not only because for safety precaution but also to be considerate to others who might not allow to get contact with dog for example like muslim. we all know the fact that they are not allowed to touch the dog, leaving the dog unchain and believing that it is well trained enough is a totally wrong idea.
During the second day of the event, one particular owner bring over 4 doggies without leashing them , she thought she could handle them well. but the truth is the other way round.
the doggy get excited and starting to running around the hall causing big kaos among visitors and also some muslim. I heard muslim shouting and yelling and cursing. This would leave a very bad impression for muslim about the pets world crew ability to control the event. They never think that what if they went to complain and this fair is forever banded to held again? Besides muslim, leaving the dog unleash is also a very dangerous act. This is because during the fair, there is hundred of doggy there regardless of size and breed. Doggy who never come across this kind of situation might have fear and anxiousty. If they wasn't chained properly they might end up fighting with other dog or creating accident to others. We cannot blame the dog for having this kind of act but the owner themselves must be responsible for it.
Other than these unpleasant incident, i still find the fair very interesting and fun experience. I get to see my favourite dog of all times!!!
tibetan mustiff!
it was prohibited to have it in malaysia. The organization only get the approver to shift from tibet to for this pet fair purpose. Whenever the tibetan is around, the crowd is there, Everyone is squeezing to take picture with this big giant dog. It was taking care by two bodyguard of its own.
Not only doggy! there is a lot of other animals in the fair such like cars, rabbits,hamsters,guinea pigs, turtle, fish and etc.
another unforgettable animal i saw is FOX!
yes you heard me no wrong, FOX!
when i saw it i thought it was a chihuahua.
till i find the size extremely odd and small and i asked the guy incharge and he told me it was a fox~
The fox was imported all the way far from Egypt and cost RM20,000. very very big figure. let alone the maintenance of it.
But it really impress me alot. Fox is very smart animal. they look extremely lovely with those really big ears that help to detect single noises far away.
Apart from all these fun experiences, i would like to talk about my after feeling for this work.
it was a pleasant experience to work for petswonderland @pro plan booth.
i was a cashier for them because i once worked for them for 9 months period.
i enjoyed the atmosphere there. we talked and laughed and have a lots of fun.
The boss of Proplan buys us expensive high tea everyday too. things like TWG macarons and starbucks drinks.
thanks to my sister who is the marketing executive for petswonderland, i get to know a lot of supplier and big boss from other company brand introduced by my sister. In the gap i get to explore another business to make money which i am really grateful of my sister.
the three days fair was wrapped up by very good sales and also dinner treat by Proplan boss again.
it was very very tiring job as i have to wake up very early in the morning but end work very late at night.
but i do learned a lot of very crucial lessons from this work.
First of all, i learned to be a responsible dog owner, to take good care of my dog when he is out and also the right way to take care of them including the knowledge of feeding them the right food. even though i have been working at pets shop before but i think learning is a forever process which will not stop.
Also, i learned the right way to social. I always thought i am quite good enough to social. but that was all my own thought. during the interaction with my sister and her big boss friends, i realize i was wrong. My sister was far way more a good social butterfly than me. she knows when to say the right thing, when to give and take, when to seize the opportunity to push the company sales and reputation. for one very good example, during the last night, they suggested to go for dinner after work.At that very moment i was very tired and instantly i said no, i am very tired and i want to go home. but my sister actually agree to the deal. moments after that, my sister told me that to be a successful corporate person you must learn to give and take. even you don't feel like doing so you still have to say yes, because that is how the world run. If you offended anyone higher rank above you you might lose your job the very next minute.
Her word makes me think a lot. I'm still fresh and green in this world. there is still tons of knowledge and lessons waiting for me to learn. and i really hope that learning all these doesn't change me to become a complicated person. despite how the world goes, i still hope to keep myself simple.
It was a weekend 3 days event held in Mid Valley exhibition hall.
What inspired me to write this post is because i really felt something throughout this event and i would really like to share it out. What drive me to write is because of what i have seen with my own eyes during the event.
So, it was a pets fair, customers are allow to bring their own dog to the fair provided they follow the following rules:
Unfortunately, when i was working there, i noticed a lot of visitors actually ignore the DO & DON'ts. you can still see some visitors allow their pets to pee and poo on the carpet or everywhere, most terrible of all is that they don't even bother to clean up their pets leftover at all. I even saw some of them just walked away after their pets finished their business. For me, i would say that this is a very inconsiderate act. There are thousand of people walking in and out of the fair, and the place to be frank is very crampy and squeezy. Other visitor who did not pay attention to it might ended up stepping on the poo and pees. And i am not exaggerating it, i do saw few times people cleaning up their feet at toilet because of this.
Besides, some also ignore the rules to leash their dogs when they enter! This is very important and also why the organization choose to highlight this rules. Leashing the dog not only because for safety precaution but also to be considerate to others who might not allow to get contact with dog for example like muslim. we all know the fact that they are not allowed to touch the dog, leaving the dog unchain and believing that it is well trained enough is a totally wrong idea.
During the second day of the event, one particular owner bring over 4 doggies without leashing them , she thought she could handle them well. but the truth is the other way round.
the doggy get excited and starting to running around the hall causing big kaos among visitors and also some muslim. I heard muslim shouting and yelling and cursing. This would leave a very bad impression for muslim about the pets world crew ability to control the event. They never think that what if they went to complain and this fair is forever banded to held again? Besides muslim, leaving the dog unleash is also a very dangerous act. This is because during the fair, there is hundred of doggy there regardless of size and breed. Doggy who never come across this kind of situation might have fear and anxiousty. If they wasn't chained properly they might end up fighting with other dog or creating accident to others. We cannot blame the dog for having this kind of act but the owner themselves must be responsible for it.
Other than these unpleasant incident, i still find the fair very interesting and fun experience. I get to see my favourite dog of all times!!!
tibetan mustiff!
it was prohibited to have it in malaysia. The organization only get the approver to shift from tibet to for this pet fair purpose. Whenever the tibetan is around, the crowd is there, Everyone is squeezing to take picture with this big giant dog. It was taking care by two bodyguard of its own.
Not only doggy! there is a lot of other animals in the fair such like cars, rabbits,hamsters,guinea pigs, turtle, fish and etc.
another unforgettable animal i saw is FOX!
yes you heard me no wrong, FOX!
when i saw it i thought it was a chihuahua.
till i find the size extremely odd and small and i asked the guy incharge and he told me it was a fox~
The fox was imported all the way far from Egypt and cost RM20,000. very very big figure. let alone the maintenance of it.
But it really impress me alot. Fox is very smart animal. they look extremely lovely with those really big ears that help to detect single noises far away.
Apart from all these fun experiences, i would like to talk about my after feeling for this work.
it was a pleasant experience to work for petswonderland @pro plan booth.
i was a cashier for them because i once worked for them for 9 months period.
i enjoyed the atmosphere there. we talked and laughed and have a lots of fun.
The boss of Proplan buys us expensive high tea everyday too. things like TWG macarons and starbucks drinks.
thanks to my sister who is the marketing executive for petswonderland, i get to know a lot of supplier and big boss from other company brand introduced by my sister. In the gap i get to explore another business to make money which i am really grateful of my sister.
the three days fair was wrapped up by very good sales and also dinner treat by Proplan boss again.
it was very very tiring job as i have to wake up very early in the morning but end work very late at night.
but i do learned a lot of very crucial lessons from this work.
First of all, i learned to be a responsible dog owner, to take good care of my dog when he is out and also the right way to take care of them including the knowledge of feeding them the right food. even though i have been working at pets shop before but i think learning is a forever process which will not stop.
Also, i learned the right way to social. I always thought i am quite good enough to social. but that was all my own thought. during the interaction with my sister and her big boss friends, i realize i was wrong. My sister was far way more a good social butterfly than me. she knows when to say the right thing, when to give and take, when to seize the opportunity to push the company sales and reputation. for one very good example, during the last night, they suggested to go for dinner after work.At that very moment i was very tired and instantly i said no, i am very tired and i want to go home. but my sister actually agree to the deal. moments after that, my sister told me that to be a successful corporate person you must learn to give and take. even you don't feel like doing so you still have to say yes, because that is how the world run. If you offended anyone higher rank above you you might lose your job the very next minute.
Her word makes me think a lot. I'm still fresh and green in this world. there is still tons of knowledge and lessons waiting for me to learn. and i really hope that learning all these doesn't change me to become a complicated person. despite how the world goes, i still hope to keep myself simple.
Thursday, June 19, 2014
why i love listening to music
This is a very random post.
i am listening to my blog music right now.
and what inspired me to write this blog today is i would like to share the reason why i love music so much.
Music has always been a inspiration to me. without music a lot of things wouldn't be able to accomplished. That's how important music are to me.
I will listened to any kind of music. Regardless of genre and singers. If the music fits my feelings and emotion, that will be my ''repeating'' songs for time. I love R&B, I love mood music, I love instrumental music, I love old school music. each type of music gives me different emotional expression.
I am that kind of girl that will easily get lead by music. If its a happy music i will feel happy and cheerful, singing along with it. If its a sad music i will get drag by the songs. I know its a bad habit to get feeling controlled by music but i guess i just can't deny that certain music really just captivate my heart and i couldn't help myself but to indulge myself into the feelings of the song writer.
Music with a true story behind it always been my favorite playlist. I couldn't live a day without listening to music. everywhere i go, my mp3 will always be with me. Music calms me down when i am having mixed feelings, music make me happy when i am down. music makes me emo too. And among all, Music definitely heal my wounds.
Currently, my favorite music would be my blog music. "someday" by korean singer IU.
why??
This is one of the reason why i love music .
the meaning behind the songs. THE LYRICS.
sometimes it is so so true and it bring tons of meaning to me.
when im heart broken , i'll listen to songs that will bring my spirit up and helps me to stand firm again.
i still remember during my healing period, i used to have a long playlist of Jay Chou emo songs in my mp3, i will listened to it everyday. The more i listened to it the more i trap myself there. They said "Dont listen to Jay chou when you are just out of a realationship because the songs will definitely kill you".
I agree!
every songs of him seem to be speaking out what am i thinking in my mind. What am i trying to say to others.
But this bring my emotion from bad to worst.
So one day, an anonymous friend deleted all of my emo songs and insert all club songs when i wasn't paying attention . At first i was really mad at him, i felt angry.
But sooner i will thank him for that.
lesser emo songs, lesser tears. That is all i have to say about it .HAHA!
and back to IU songs, she has always been one a favorite artist of me, and why is this song mean so much to me is because one verse of the lyrics goes like this
Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out
But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well
I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears
Yes! no matter how bad is the situation, SOMEDAY it will get better.
No matter how many tears you shed before, SOMEDAY you will find you laughter back.
I really wonder how much pain she has gone through before she finally able to compose such a wonderful song. Music has been part of my life since very young age. No music, No life!
my promoter life
Today, i would like to share something which is a part of my life.
not only studying, also i work as a promoter during weekend. although some may question if i really got the spare time to do so, but i am here to say that i am not doing it for spare time,but for living.
i have been working as a promoter ever since i came to KL, which was two years back.Our work time is only on weekend, 12pm-9pm. my friend introduce me this job. after undergoing a few times of interview i begin to work officially.
I work in a famous pharmacist store in Mid Valley. I still remember when i first started work, i was totally like an idiot. I have no idea how to approach customers, how to mingle and make friends with other staff there. It was tough in the first place.Also i couldn't stand standing whole day long. It was hard for me to sell my product as i am lack of experience and courage.Also i mentioned before in my previous post, i used to be a shy and timid girl. Can you imagine how difficult for me to survive in this work field where everyone is so aggressive and care about their sales report?
I was lectured by a few senior staff there. They told me " if you want to survive in this field you got to learn to be selfish and strong and aggressive, money doesn't just drop down from heaven."
I guess i wasn't so sure about the meaning at that time. Some people there are mean. They will try to bring you down at all mean. This is because whenever a new promoter occur, it become a threat for them. Gossips drama often happened there. Environment very soon drives me to change.
I re-join the training session for my products. Trying to improved myself better. Not only that, i trained myself to become more courageous in approaching customers. i observed how other people did it and try to do it even better myself. It was a long process. When time passed, i begin to master the skills.
Most important of all, i have learned the beauty of complimenting other people. I mean, who don't like to get praise?
As time goes by, i begin to make a lot of friends there. They respect my effort in fighting to become a better worker. My sales have increased from bad to good. I feel satisfied when my boss gave me good comment.
Two years have pass, and i am still on the work field. I appreciate this working experience. Because it gives me a early chance to have a look at how the society are and also to be a early learner to learn the surviving skills in this world.
not only studying, also i work as a promoter during weekend. although some may question if i really got the spare time to do so, but i am here to say that i am not doing it for spare time,but for living.
i have been working as a promoter ever since i came to KL, which was two years back.Our work time is only on weekend, 12pm-9pm. my friend introduce me this job. after undergoing a few times of interview i begin to work officially.
I work in a famous pharmacist store in Mid Valley. I still remember when i first started work, i was totally like an idiot. I have no idea how to approach customers, how to mingle and make friends with other staff there. It was tough in the first place.Also i couldn't stand standing whole day long. It was hard for me to sell my product as i am lack of experience and courage.Also i mentioned before in my previous post, i used to be a shy and timid girl. Can you imagine how difficult for me to survive in this work field where everyone is so aggressive and care about their sales report?
I was lectured by a few senior staff there. They told me " if you want to survive in this field you got to learn to be selfish and strong and aggressive, money doesn't just drop down from heaven."
I guess i wasn't so sure about the meaning at that time. Some people there are mean. They will try to bring you down at all mean. This is because whenever a new promoter occur, it become a threat for them. Gossips drama often happened there. Environment very soon drives me to change.
I re-join the training session for my products. Trying to improved myself better. Not only that, i trained myself to become more courageous in approaching customers. i observed how other people did it and try to do it even better myself. It was a long process. When time passed, i begin to master the skills.
Most important of all, i have learned the beauty of complimenting other people. I mean, who don't like to get praise?
As time goes by, i begin to make a lot of friends there. They respect my effort in fighting to become a better worker. My sales have increased from bad to good. I feel satisfied when my boss gave me good comment.
Two years have pass, and i am still on the work field. I appreciate this working experience. Because it gives me a early chance to have a look at how the society are and also to be a early learner to learn the surviving skills in this world.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Love is not all that matters
so recently there is a topic that keeps going around in my mind.
i know some of you might thinks that it might be a little early for me to discuss about this topic but just a thought of sharing it .
what inspired me to write this post is because of a past fail relationship i have been through. although its had been more than half year from now but i have been wanting to say this.
how i feel throughout this relationship?
hmm..i once said i felt remorseful for having this relationship, but now when i think back, i do really grateful for having this experience. they said, every relationship shapes a women to become stronger. i could not agree more with this.
back in 2013, i am a girl who has very low sense of self esteem. i always think very lowly of myself. i found myself very incompatible. And definitely i do not have confident in myself. Till i met HIM. the one that changed my life forever.
He taught me to be strong. to have faith in myself and always inspired me a lot. He encouraged me, praised me and had always gave me positive energy. the time we spent together is nothing but happiness in everyday. i once really grateful to God for sending such a wonderful man into my life. he is smart, intelligent, outspoken, person with great mind. being in a relationship is all about learning from each other. And i do pick up a lot from him.
But unfortunately, good times always doesn't last long. Maybe i'm just not the person that he thinks who can finish the course with him. and so he left me. without asking for the real reason i have decided to let him go. it might seem like i do not care about the relationship or i do not appreciate enough to let him go that easily. but actually i do care about this than anyone else. but my believes is always that those who choose to leave, there is no point asking them to stay. never ask for reason why they left you, because the answer will never ever be what you expect to hear.
So the first week is hell. yes, HELL! nothing i can do but cry in bed everyday. i thought i could not live without him. but soon, i realize that i still got a life to live. So I've tried very very, extremely hard to pick myself up. i work like a workaholic everyday. i hang out with friends everyday.distract myself just to not think about him anymore. but the harder you try, the more you could not get him out of your mind.
its been a really hard time. and there are also times where i gone astray. i have friends who backstabbed my during that period and goes around helping me to share my story. it break my heart, but it also a chance to let me have a clear picture of who is indeed the true friend.
But thank GOD! all these had passed. time flushed away pain, what's left behind is memories. what makes me able to pull through all these shit is thanks to people around me.
been through all these makes me realize that i actually do have a lot of friends that cares about me more than i can imagine. and one more things i believed is that WHATEVER HAPPENS, YOUR FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BACK YOU UP. i am showered with a lot of loves and caring from tons of people.This strikes me that it is useless for me to still keep dwelling on sadness.
Now, my mindset has changed. i should be thankful for it. every guy that comes in and walk away from your life is to give you a life lesson. what he taught me before i still bear it in my mind. i practiced it everyday.
i am no longer the naive girl .I've learnt to think before i talk, to have confidence in myself, and also never look down on myself anymore. I've read a lot of books to help me change my mindset. what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Now that i saw him leading a happy life with his new mate, i am proud of myself because i can really let everything behind and bless him wholeheartedly.
And of course among all, i have learnt to appreciate every single little things that happened in my life. others see it might said i dramatize everything. but the fact is that i just want them to know that i actually appreciate a lot for what they have done for me.not only that, i also learnt that it is very important for me to always upgrade myself, physically and mentally and to be fit enough before i could actually start to love anyone else again. my learning journey is still a long way up ahead waiting for me. and everyday i am excited because i have never love my life like nowadays. not that now my life has no problems or what, but is that now whenever things happens, i know what i have to do, what i am suppose to do to solve the problems instead of just running away from problem . i will still get frustration and anger , but I've learnt not to release it on other people. they said that when you set your thought and mindset on the right track, you will feel happy and young everyday.
my heart was filled with hatred and sadness last time, blinded with negatives. this will never happens again. i promised myself.
Now, my everyday goals is to improve myself better and better and cherish everything that God has put in my life. And also, to laugh happily everyday. HAHAHAHA!!
(*sorry for grammatical error, that is one of the things that i am currently trying to improve =P .)
thank you for spending time to read
:)
i know some of you might thinks that it might be a little early for me to discuss about this topic but just a thought of sharing it .
what inspired me to write this post is because of a past fail relationship i have been through. although its had been more than half year from now but i have been wanting to say this.
how i feel throughout this relationship?
hmm..i once said i felt remorseful for having this relationship, but now when i think back, i do really grateful for having this experience. they said, every relationship shapes a women to become stronger. i could not agree more with this.
back in 2013, i am a girl who has very low sense of self esteem. i always think very lowly of myself. i found myself very incompatible. And definitely i do not have confident in myself. Till i met HIM. the one that changed my life forever.
He taught me to be strong. to have faith in myself and always inspired me a lot. He encouraged me, praised me and had always gave me positive energy. the time we spent together is nothing but happiness in everyday. i once really grateful to God for sending such a wonderful man into my life. he is smart, intelligent, outspoken, person with great mind. being in a relationship is all about learning from each other. And i do pick up a lot from him.
But unfortunately, good times always doesn't last long. Maybe i'm just not the person that he thinks who can finish the course with him. and so he left me. without asking for the real reason i have decided to let him go. it might seem like i do not care about the relationship or i do not appreciate enough to let him go that easily. but actually i do care about this than anyone else. but my believes is always that those who choose to leave, there is no point asking them to stay. never ask for reason why they left you, because the answer will never ever be what you expect to hear.
So the first week is hell. yes, HELL! nothing i can do but cry in bed everyday. i thought i could not live without him. but soon, i realize that i still got a life to live. So I've tried very very, extremely hard to pick myself up. i work like a workaholic everyday. i hang out with friends everyday.distract myself just to not think about him anymore. but the harder you try, the more you could not get him out of your mind.
its been a really hard time. and there are also times where i gone astray. i have friends who backstabbed my during that period and goes around helping me to share my story. it break my heart, but it also a chance to let me have a clear picture of who is indeed the true friend.
But thank GOD! all these had passed. time flushed away pain, what's left behind is memories. what makes me able to pull through all these shit is thanks to people around me.
been through all these makes me realize that i actually do have a lot of friends that cares about me more than i can imagine. and one more things i believed is that WHATEVER HAPPENS, YOUR FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BACK YOU UP. i am showered with a lot of loves and caring from tons of people.This strikes me that it is useless for me to still keep dwelling on sadness.
Now, my mindset has changed. i should be thankful for it. every guy that comes in and walk away from your life is to give you a life lesson. what he taught me before i still bear it in my mind. i practiced it everyday.
i am no longer the naive girl .I've learnt to think before i talk, to have confidence in myself, and also never look down on myself anymore. I've read a lot of books to help me change my mindset. what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Now that i saw him leading a happy life with his new mate, i am proud of myself because i can really let everything behind and bless him wholeheartedly.
And of course among all, i have learnt to appreciate every single little things that happened in my life. others see it might said i dramatize everything. but the fact is that i just want them to know that i actually appreciate a lot for what they have done for me.not only that, i also learnt that it is very important for me to always upgrade myself, physically and mentally and to be fit enough before i could actually start to love anyone else again. my learning journey is still a long way up ahead waiting for me. and everyday i am excited because i have never love my life like nowadays. not that now my life has no problems or what, but is that now whenever things happens, i know what i have to do, what i am suppose to do to solve the problems instead of just running away from problem . i will still get frustration and anger , but I've learnt not to release it on other people. they said that when you set your thought and mindset on the right track, you will feel happy and young everyday.
my heart was filled with hatred and sadness last time, blinded with negatives. this will never happens again. i promised myself.
Now, my everyday goals is to improve myself better and better and cherish everything that God has put in my life. And also, to laugh happily everyday. HAHAHAHA!!
(*sorry for grammatical error, that is one of the things that i am currently trying to improve =P .)
thank you for spending time to read
:)
Monday, June 2, 2014
friends visitation
Last weekend was a very hectic and busy week for me.
my friend came to visit us from Singapore.
that makes me a tourist guide for him.
On saturday,my friend arrived and pick us up.
firstly we went to sunway pyramid for lunch.
firstly we went to sunway pyramid for lunch.
we took our lunch at pasta zanmai.
His friends who never visit KL seem very excited and non stop taking picture.
after that we were just shopping around the mall.
around 4pm we went to check in hotel. it was a hotel nearby sunway.
we took a rest and get ready at 8pm.
we planned to go sunway soju. so after having dinner we went to the club.
it was my first time there, the atmosphere and feeling was really nice.
it was a very big and classy place where i can see a lot of really pretty girls there.
i like that place a lot.
they are not as noisy as other club as they have really professional live band there.
we enjoyed ourself very much there.
we went back around 3am.
i was slightly tipsy that day.
the next day, we woke up at 10am.
we ready ourselves and check out at 12pm.
we went to sri petaling to have our lunch and last minute decided to head up to Genting Highlands for a spin.
it took us around 1 hour drive.
the air was really refreshing and cold up there. as the theme park was closed, we were just chilling around the shopping mall. have some hot drinks and food.
we saw some performance there too. such like magic shows and hot chicks dance group.
around 5pm we left there. i was too tired and i fall asleep during the journey.
when i woke up i was at times square already.
they decided to visit there as they really been wanting to go there.
we took BBQ plaza as our dinner then carry on to shopping.
then they sent me home and head back to perak, their hometown.
it was really a tired and busy weekend. i have never been so exhausted for a long time already.
i slept very early that day.
throughout this journey, there was some mistakes ive made.I've forget to book hotel for them and it caused a little trouble as we spent too much time on searching the hotel and got us all very tired. Next time i will learnt mt lesson and not doing last minute job anymore. and also i forgot to look properly for the map of the mall and we got lost on the way going there.i'll take extra caution on this next time.
throughout this journey, there was some mistakes ive made.I've forget to book hotel for them and it caused a little trouble as we spent too much time on searching the hotel and got us all very tired. Next time i will learnt mt lesson and not doing last minute job anymore. and also i forgot to look properly for the map of the mall and we got lost on the way going there.i'll take extra caution on this next time.
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
2014
2014 的第一个post
其实我很想要写些好的开心的
可是最近的我实在没什么好开心地
就拿刚才好了
6点放工赛车等车9点才到家
知道那种耐心被磨光不耐烦到委屈想哭的感觉吗
是的。。
最近的我很爱哭
今天。。。。。。。我崩溃了
不知道是不是要来红了
情绪最近真他妈的乱糟糟
我不否认是因为他
触景伤情
走到哪只要看到情侣做着一些动作
就会让我想起他
下电梯总喜欢搭着我肩膀
喜欢一直捏我脸
喜欢牵我手，即使有时候我故意抽开
走路都会拉我走里面
看电影都会让我安静的看
他就会很不开心
阿天啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
就这样一看到了就会鼻酸
曾几何时，那也是我的温柔阿！
我觉得我很无可救药
我无时无刻没有不再想他的
每晚都会听着这首歌哭
我不知道，我就是真的觉得好不甘心!!!
到底是什么原因
能让你一天以内，就从说爱我变成说对不起
朋友都说你一定是有第二个了
我不够好吗？
我会一直问自己
或许我觉得我没问题
可是在你的眼里
我很多很多不足吧
为什么你可以那么狠心那么绝情
一分开了就完全不理我对我不闻不问??!!
那天喝醉了发了信息给你
可我强烈的感觉到你不想理我
甚至连回都那么敷衍!!
好累。。虽然一直告诉自己不要去寻找你不爱我的理由。
可不知道为什么
心就是痛着
好痛
你怎么可以
那么快
就带着别的女孩子去我们最爱的地方
那是我最喜欢吃的地方
是我每次求你带我去的地方
可是这次你却跟了别人去
为什么还要让我看到???!!!!
不觉得你真的很狠心么
为什么只有我在痛苦??!
难道这一切是我的错吗?!!
就算到现在
我们去过的地方我都不敢回去
我害怕回忆会把我吞噬
我害怕自己会更痛
你说了句对不起
就丢下了我什么也不管不理不在乎
难道爱情都是会这样？
you're stonger than you think
这是你告诉我的
我也以为我很坚强
可我真的不甘心！
他们都说
不甘心，又怎样？我能做什么
对阿。。。我能做什么
我们已经不可能了
现在的你可能已经抱着别个女孩子
重复叙述着以前你说给我听得甜言蜜语
以前听过
‘男人的甜言蜜语。听过。微笑。忘记’
我终于明白为什么了
你第一次抱着我亲口说出我爱你的时候
我是多么激动的抱着你哭了好久
因为我能深深感受到你的用心
那份激动我到现在都还记得
是全身发抖
是激动万分
是难以置信
每一次你说爱我的时候
都会加上‘真的，好爱你’
每次当我害怕了哭着怕你会离开我的时候
你说' Im not going anywhere'
这是很让我定心的一句话
我相信你！多么的相信你!
可是就在说完的两天后
你就毫不顾虑的离开
有时真怀疑你到底有没有感觉
这么多次的恋爱你已经习惯没有感觉的分手了??
我只不过是在你恋爱史里加多一个1 罢了??
今天分手明天又微信摇一摇认识新的女生？
我到底算什么??
你对我说过
我能给你从来没有过的安心感
会喜欢跟我静静聊天的时光
难道你找到了更能给你安心感的女生了?
从头到尾我就只是让你过时间的工具罢了把？
其实我早该看清
我一直在自欺欺人
幸福的爱情永远不会降临在我身上
恋爱魔咒一直都缠绕在我身上
每当我用心去爱了
可他们都会背叛我离开我
为什么一切那么难
我很可悲
我只剩下这里可以写出来
我不会再在任何和你有关联的地方写到任何我们的事
你很开心吧
看到我还放不下
所以我不想让你看到我这么懦弱
所以我都很尽量的表现出很开心
可是有谁知道
微笑的符号根心里的感受是没有关系的
我怪不了任何人
当初是我说过我要hold on 这段感情的
你也已经警告过我你给不了我未来
女人，总是犯贱的
我看到那盏光
我以为他是我的归宿
所以我飞蛾扑火
下场。。
却是落得满身火吻
流着眼泪，却还是笑着原谅
加油吧陈芳怡
需要的只是时间 :)
其实我很想要写些好的开心的
可是最近的我实在没什么好开心地
就拿刚才好了
6点放工赛车等车9点才到家
知道那种耐心被磨光不耐烦到委屈想哭的感觉吗
是的。。
最近的我很爱哭
今天。。。。。。。我崩溃了
不知道是不是要来红了
情绪最近真他妈的乱糟糟
我不否认是因为他
触景伤情
走到哪只要看到情侣做着一些动作
就会让我想起他
下电梯总喜欢搭着我肩膀
喜欢一直捏我脸
喜欢牵我手，即使有时候我故意抽开
走路都会拉我走里面
看电影都会让我安静的看
他就会很不开心
阿天啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
就这样一看到了就会鼻酸
曾几何时，那也是我的温柔阿！
我觉得我很无可救药
我无时无刻没有不再想他的
每晚都会听着这首歌哭
我不知道，我就是真的觉得好不甘心!!!
到底是什么原因
能让你一天以内，就从说爱我变成说对不起
朋友都说你一定是有第二个了
我不够好吗？
我会一直问自己
或许我觉得我没问题
可是在你的眼里
我很多很多不足吧
为什么你可以那么狠心那么绝情
一分开了就完全不理我对我不闻不问??!!
那天喝醉了发了信息给你
可我强烈的感觉到你不想理我
甚至连回都那么敷衍!!
好累。。虽然一直告诉自己不要去寻找你不爱我的理由。
可不知道为什么
心就是痛着
好痛
你怎么可以
那么快
就带着别的女孩子去我们最爱的地方
那是我最喜欢吃的地方
是我每次求你带我去的地方
可是这次你却跟了别人去
为什么还要让我看到???!!!!
不觉得你真的很狠心么
为什么只有我在痛苦??!
难道这一切是我的错吗?!!
就算到现在
我们去过的地方我都不敢回去
我害怕回忆会把我吞噬
我害怕自己会更痛
你说了句对不起
就丢下了我什么也不管不理不在乎
难道爱情都是会这样？
you're stonger than you think
这是你告诉我的
我也以为我很坚强
可我真的不甘心！
他们都说
不甘心，又怎样？我能做什么
对阿。。。我能做什么
我们已经不可能了
现在的你可能已经抱着别个女孩子
重复叙述着以前你说给我听得甜言蜜语
以前听过
‘男人的甜言蜜语。听过。微笑。忘记’
我终于明白为什么了
你第一次抱着我亲口说出我爱你的时候
我是多么激动的抱着你哭了好久
因为我能深深感受到你的用心
那份激动我到现在都还记得
是全身发抖
是激动万分
是难以置信
每一次你说爱我的时候
都会加上‘真的，好爱你’
每次当我害怕了哭着怕你会离开我的时候
你说' Im not going anywhere'
这是很让我定心的一句话
我相信你！多么的相信你!
可是就在说完的两天后
你就毫不顾虑的离开
有时真怀疑你到底有没有感觉
这么多次的恋爱你已经习惯没有感觉的分手了??
我只不过是在你恋爱史里加多一个1 罢了??
今天分手明天又微信摇一摇认识新的女生？
我到底算什么??
你对我说过
我能给你从来没有过的安心感
会喜欢跟我静静聊天的时光
难道你找到了更能给你安心感的女生了?
从头到尾我就只是让你过时间的工具罢了把？
其实我早该看清
我一直在自欺欺人
幸福的爱情永远不会降临在我身上
恋爱魔咒一直都缠绕在我身上
每当我用心去爱了
可他们都会背叛我离开我
为什么一切那么难
我很可悲
我只剩下这里可以写出来
我不会再在任何和你有关联的地方写到任何我们的事
你很开心吧
看到我还放不下
所以我不想让你看到我这么懦弱
所以我都很尽量的表现出很开心
可是有谁知道
微笑的符号根心里的感受是没有关系的
我怪不了任何人
当初是我说过我要hold on 这段感情的
你也已经警告过我你给不了我未来
女人，总是犯贱的
我看到那盏光
我以为他是我的归宿
所以我飞蛾扑火
下场。。
却是落得满身火吻
流着眼泪，却还是笑着原谅
加油吧陈芳怡
需要的只是时间 :)
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