This is a blog post as in to fulfill my assignment to write a blog , also a chance for me to finally return to my blog and manage it again.
So, my life have just stepped into the gate of 21. the legal age where i can officially take the key and the age where i can officially enter casino, club and own a credit card. but non of it is important for me , being a 21 years old girl. what is important for me is that i think that i finally reached the age, to own the freedom ,but at the same time, loses my teenage hood.
Just two days after i have passed my 21st birthday celebration, My beloved mum handed me a booklet and a card. it was a life insurance policy book and the medical card. Yes.. i own a life insurance now. it might sound a normal thing for others but for me personally, i had a lot of feelings to it. it symbolize growth, responsibility and duty.
And why do i say so? First of all, this is going to be my first monthly installment debt from now on. i am going to have to save out a sum of money every month to pay for this monthly debt for the rest of my life. I guess this really mean growing up. Time for some 21 years old responsibility challenge. And i know the reason for my mum to do this is because she had always think that i have problem in saving money. she wanted to educate me the importance of saving up money for the emergency. I totally understand her point and i know she did it for my own good.
I can really feel that i don't have time for anymore wasting time events and dwell on meaningless thing. because as i grew older, the responsibility weight more on my shoulder. example like right now, i actually have to figure out more job resources to pay my monthly debt. like seriously ? I am still a students studying, even trying to pass my final exam is a pain in the axx already, now asking me to pay debt some more?
I certainly know that, this is just the beginning, one more year, when i am starting intern, then i will need a car also. by then, i will have another car debt, car insurance debt, car petrol money. all this is not only just financial problem, but also a test, a test to see how far i can go without family to support me. And grewing up in a strict independent family where my mother would always ask us to rely on ourself, I strongly believe that there is no way i can actually quit from all this and ask for help. NO.
Apart from that, it also came to a realization that i should quit playing and lazying around but start to set a direction for my life, my future, my work and my goal. Yes. everyone has dream i believe.
during the younger stage, we dream to become a doctor, a millionaire, a lawyer and etc. but, as we grew up, how many actually did successfully make their dream come true? and how many actually quit due to reality circumstances?
Do i want to be quitter? I have been asking myself this question since i was 17. The time where i fail to achieve a good results in SPM and the time where i am in a struggle whether to continue study or should i just quit.
my dream, is to be a successful surprise proposal planner. i have big dream to make every girl in the world to the happiest women on their special day. every girl deserves this day in their life. And i am glad that at the age of 21 now , i am actually at 500m from my starting point to my dream.
i am glad to see something happened for my dream. what concern me now is how far can i hold on to my dream and make it a dream come true? with all the pressure and reality problem coming to me now, how long can i handle it ?
I want my life to be a memorable one, i want to do something that my future self will thank me for.
